Wednesday

to not care

Would you mind if I wrote again,
if i tapped out these words and tried to say the things
i haven't said in so long?
there's probably no one here any longer,
things have changed and this online world of words has run dry,
exchanged for status updates and over edited photos that reek of
fantasy and idolatry and are mostly void of honesty and life.
but i might try.
because words are all i have and it's pure and it's open and
i don't need the likes or the followers, i
just need to scribble down the heart and leave it,
walk away and let it flow and
God woke me when He shook me when He told me
I am letting it all go.
my heart rests and i will not lose it,
i will wrap it up, taped in plain ol paper and
i will let it be unveiled gently or violently or
however one finds themselves unwrapping words.
there is truth and i cannot hide behind that wall anymore,
with it's unbreakable brick keeping the masses captive.
as i write i feel free and
i may never stop.
we drift and i say hello and you
look to the heavens trying to ignore me and
i think that it's okay. ignore me or love me or
smile slightly in that friendly but not too way,
hate me, enjoy me, laugh at me, cry, delight, despise,
it matters not. because
i found freedom and
once again,
i like me.


11 comments:

  1. Love your words Amy. There is peace in being true to whatever tugs at your heart... ❤️

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    1. Thank you Hilary! So nice to see you in this space.

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    1. That means so much coming from you, a true poet and weaver of words.

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  3. Amy,

    It's good to see you writing again!

    Social media distracted me away from my blog too. Yes, all those likes and follows and status updates. I couldn't deal with them anymore. Now I've decided to post photos and stories and thoughts only on my blog even though I'm not sure if many people from FB and Instagram will read them. I think the online world has changed a lot since I first started blogging. Most people prefer a quick status update and a photo rather than a blog post. But I have to write properly and you do too. Keep scribbling down your heart!

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    1. Yes Sue, yes yes yes! This is so true and I'm so glad you understand. Let's bring blogging back!

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  4. I have missed your voice, and it is so good to hear your words again. Even as I am rethinking my own wee little IG account.
    Your words speak peace. xx

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