we drive away from six and i swallow hard,
not certain i can do this
but husband wants to spoil me, be with just me,
and oldest child,
so wise beyond his years, so close to the title of man
"go. i can do this. we will be fine."
and as car pulls onto road away from six whom have never been all alone, all together
my mind cannot leave them, and the questions are constant,
"are you sure we should?" "do you think they will be okay?" "maybe we should go somewhere closer?"
but husband who loves me so deep and wide
is determined to take me away, to our favorite restaraunt, 30 minutes away,
and i feel such anxiety, but i will. let. him. take. me.
i try to settle down, to enjoy being with him,
to not let worry overcome this once in a blue moon moment.
and so we arrive at the little cafe by the sea,
eat, talk deep talk not had in so long,
hold hands over table and gaze into love eyes.
and when we leave, i sigh, content,
ready to rush back to six,
but he turns car wrong direction and i gasp.
"relax, they're okay. just a few more minutes."
he drives along ocean to pier as sun begins to set,
getting out while darkness looms,
we link arms and walk the way into the ocean,
just the two of us,
night falling quickly,
cold air whipping us mightily,
and we hold each other, looking over edge,
we talk of children and God,
i tell him of gratitude, and daughter's journal,
we breathe in ocean air and deeper love.
and when we finally make it home six children are beautiful.
clean house, pajamas, smiles and a movie,
and we cuddle them and kiss them,
and i whisper gratitude for
night walk down pier arm in arm with husband
cool ocean breeze blows through our hair, on our face
darting lines of clouds from pier as night falls
smiles from others walking
date with husband at
favorite restaraunt, Del's
coming home to beautiful, happy six
twin girls secret language
baby moses "blowing out" candles
baby walking with bucket on his head, laughing, enjoying every moment
children smiling at their siblings
baby learning to give kisses